Just Some Shits

Okayy, I’m back.

Anyway, Happy New Year + 25 days :p

I’ve been busy these days, or I’ve been looking for my mood to write. Well, that’s not really important. What matter is, I’m back for today.

I have a lot of things in my mind. Correct me, SHITS in my mind.

I’m thinking about my future. My job, my carreer, my school, my dreams. And also my family. We’ve been very tired yelling and telling my little brother – which is not little anymore, come on, he’s taller than me now, BIGGER than me. Gosh, nobody would believe that he is my LITTLE brother. – to make some changes about himself. He is very egoist, and we all hate it, he is too sensitive. Okay, Imma stop telling about my brother here.

I’m so stressed these days. Thinking, about what am I going to be in the future. I’m going to graduate on November next year, yep 2014. I’m thinking of what will I do after I graduate. Maybe I should go back for undergraduate for engineering or design, or I should continuing my work on this little company, which will obviously handling me sum of money. I’m going to be 22th on my graduation. Will I be too old starting an undergraduate program?

Ahh, I wish I can solve this problem immediately.

Well, I’m going to tell you about my life for almost a year.

I work and I study, and then I work again and study again. And ... one and two.. and three.. and four.. AGAIN.. one, two, three, four. AND REPEAT.

WORK AND STUDY. 

BORING.

I’m watching film series. CRIMINAL MINDS. This film is just so good. And it is irresistible! I can’t stop myself from watching it. I watch them from season 1 (one season has 22-23 episodes, and each episode is about 40-45 minutes long) to season 7 just in two or three months? Hahah, crazy right. In the middle of my crazy schedule. And I’m streaming it now on www.awesomedl.com for the season 8. For now, it is about 12 or 13 episodes, I forgot. And it is still airing! Ermm.. But I really love it!

This film tells about BAU team in the FBI. BAU stands for Behaviourial Analysis Unit. Their job is profiling. Most of their cases are causes by serial killers. They do this kind of profiling. Victimology, they analyze who are the victims, what connects those victims. And also, how did the killers kill their victims. From those profiling thingy, the BAU team can tell what is the killer’s job, or is the killer female or male, or how old is the killer. Most of the questions is WHY. Why does the killer kill? What is the trigger for killing? Why did he/she start killing?

If you really love these kind of movies, you should watch it! BEARYY RECOMMENDED! \(^o^)/

Oh, and what I also love about this movie is, they are great and awesome quotes at the beginning and the end of every episodes  here are the examples :

- Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world ~ Albert Einsten

- A belief is not merely an idea the mind possesses. It is an idea that possesses the mind ~ Robert Oxton Bolton

- What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world, remains and immortal ~ Albert Pine

- You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do ~ Eleanor Roosevelt

- Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of its trouble, attempts what is above it’s stregth, pleads no excuse for impossibility, for it thinks all things are lawful for itself and all things are possible ~ Thomas Kemp

Okay, those are the quotes I love. I’m going to give you more when I have time. 

I think I should go now.

Byebye. See you in another good mood :D

xoxo, 

Ve ♥

For someone who's turning 20

Selamat ulang tahun, untuk orang yang menjadi begitu berharga dalam hidupku sejak setahun yang lalu, Rieswin Rachwell :)

Namanya Cinta.

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Cinta ini adiksi. Aku tahu aku takkan pernah sanggup mengahadapi hari tanpa Cinta. Dari pertama kali aku mengenal Cinta, aku tahu aku takkan pernah terlepas dari Cinta. Cinta menjadi sebuah ketergantungan. Apapun yang aku lakukan, aku ingin Cinta tahu. Setiap langkah yang kulalui, aku ingin membagikannya kepada Cinta. Aku ingin Cinta yang menemaniku sampai aku mati nanti. Aku ingin Cinta yang selalu mengerti diriku. Tapi keegoisan membuatku tak berusaha mengerti mengenai Cinta.

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Dari sebuah adiksi, kini Cinta menjadi segalanya. Setiap aku bermimpi, Cintalah yang selalu kuimpikan. Disaat aku akan menetapkan tujuan, Cintalah tujuanku. Bagaimana jika suatu saat aku harus melepas Cinta? Bagaimana jika suatu saat Cinta meninggalkanku?