Job VS Career

Driven by everything I felt these days, every thoughts, every struggling, here I am. Writing. Again.

Somehow, I miss writing. Expressing my feelings.

Okay. I am no more a teenager. I am an adult. Searching for something for my future. Deciding how will my future be. And how will I spend my whole life earning money.

But, you know, it is not about money. It is job. No, it is more than a job. It is career, my life.

Career and job is a whole different thing. as you can see here :

Career Job What is it? A career is the pursuit of a lifelong ambition or the general course of progression towards lifelong goals. Job is an activity through which an individual can earn money. It is a regular activity in exchange of payment. Requirements Usually requires special learning that includes individualized components that develop abilities beyond that which training is capable of. Education or Special training may or may not be required Risk taking A career may not mean stability of work as it encourages one to take risks. The risks are often internal and therefore planned. A job is “safe”, as stability of work and income is there. However shifting priorities, especially in resource jobs, can abruptly change the demand and require relocation which is an unstable factor. Risks may be completely external. Time Long term Short term Income Varies depending on value to society or to some other entity. Non-monetary benefits may be higher. Salary is more common. Varies by demand. More likely to be wage. Contribution to society May have high value as social change/progress may be possible. May actually have a negative impact when counterproductive social practices are continued in the name of protecting jobs.

(http://www.diffen.com/difference/Career_vs_Job)

 or here

A job is simply something you do to earn money. Career advancement is not something you’re interested in there and the work often doesn’t interest you at all. In five years, you’ll likely not be doing anything like your current job.

A career is a series of connected employment opportunities, where you build up skills at earlier employment opportunities to move you into higher paying and higher prestige employment opportunities later on. In five years, you’re planning to be doing something very similar to what you’re doing now, but hopefully with more income and more interesting problems to tackle.

(http://www.thesimpledollar.com/)

Thinking of this, no, I can't just look for a job. I need to find what I am good at, what I really want to be. I am not just earning money for life, I should be a great career woman, who will be known for her achievements and skills.

But,,,

This is the biggest problem:

I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT :(

I have been thinking of this, for past few weeks. And I feel so down.

I feel that I can't just stay here. Just sit and watch and doing this stupid routine without having any guarantee for my FUTURE.

Please, Oh dear, I ain't staying here. I am going to somewhere else better! One day! Just wait and see!

But then, 

I realize, those big companies I dream about always requires graduates from REPUTABLE UNIVERSITY.

There I go, down. Again. Since my university is not a reputable uni.

And I have been thinking, will I get the chance to get on top?

I have applied to some big companies I've been dreaming of. And it has been 2-4 weeks. I haven't got a clue. For now, I am just hoping that they will call me to have a test and an interview. 

Or maybe, they won't. just because I am not from a reputable university.

I once thought: I have my working experience, that will make me worth one day. But I don't think so.

Yes, I have been very negative thinking about this kind of thing. 

But I do believe that I can achieve my dreams one day. One day.

I should start working on myself. Improving myself for better future.

I should find myself. What I want to be, and what I need to be.

Stop waiting, Audrey!! Stop waiting!! Do something from NOW!

Have A Little Thought

Well.. haven't been posted anything for years since I don't have a chance to write and telling you what am I thinking..

Today, I am gonna talk about my life, literally.
I finished my final year project and I am waiting for my graduation on November. *yeayy* I should have been happy, but all I feel is... nothing. Yes, nothing. It is like, yes I am graduated, no burdens, no more project, no more tests. But I feel empty.
I am thinking.. what should I do next? I am going to graduate as a Bachelor in Economy, as an accountant, but I don't feel like I am one.
I can't just sit around in front of my computer to do my works as an accountant. I just can't. I am a very active person and I am a very creative one. I always wanted to learn new things and create one. I always wanted to be someone who can multi-tasking any works. I want to be better, I want to learn everything and I want to be me.

Having a life as an accountant is just not me.

But anyway, here I am. Yep, an accountant. I pity myself for not having something I want and something I have always dreamed about. I know I brag too much lately.

Sekedar Rasa Terima Kasih

Mungkin ia bukan lelaki paling sempurna yang pernah kutemui, juga bukan lelaki paling rupawan yang pernah kulihat. Ia juga buka seorang lelaki yang puitis yang biasanya dapat membuat wanita luluh melalui kata-kata manisnya. Arogan, dan tentu saja egois. Keras kepala, dan terkadang - bagaimana caraku mendeskripsikannya ya - menyebalkan. Tapi selama ini, ia selalu memberiku kenyamanan saat berada di dekatnya. Dan, ia satu-satunya lelaki yang kuinginkan untuk selalu di sisiku. Segala sesuatu yang ia lakukan, hanya itu yang aku pedulikan saat ini. Bukannya aku terobsesi, tetapi memang hanya ia yang kubutuhkan sekarang.

Caranya memperlakukanku, caranya berkomunikasi. Aku tahu, menyebalkan. Tapi itulah yang membuatnya berbeda dari laki-laki lain. Ia memang menyebalkan, tapi ia menghargai setiap keputusan dan komitmenku. Menyebalkan dalam definisiku terkadang berbeda dari definisi orang lain. Ia hanya, kurang sensitif. Tapi ia selalu menawarkan cinta yang berbeda. Caranya mencintai, caranya memberikan cinta. Bukan sekedar cinta yang ia tawarkan, tapi komitmen. Perasaan dapat berubah, tetapi komitmen yang dipegangnya tidak berubah.

Lelaki ini termasuk lelaki yang keras kepala, dan egois. Tapi, selama satu tahun lebih ini, hampir dua tahun sudah, rasanya aku yang lebih egois dan keras kepala. Ia selalu mengalah. Ia selalu bersabar menghadapi aku yang selalu ngambek. Dan ia, yang selalu berusaha membuatku tertawa dan berhasil.

Setahun yang lalu,

Ve