Things I've Missed

I keep thinking, how will life be?
I'll have a great husband, for sure. Lovely kids around. Big and happy family.
I'm going to be a great mother, lovable wife.

But, what about now? I'm tired of life, the way it threatens me, the time I've sacrificed. Hurt physically and mentally. I keep surviving, pretending to be tough. Guess what? I'm exhausted. Too tired of all the dramas I've been into.

Dear Life, could you stop threatening me like the way you do? Sincerely, desperate of surviving.

I keep counting the times I've missed. All the missing opportunities to be me, I mean, the real me. All I've ever wanted. Will it be? Or I'll just lose them?

I miss staring at the sky in the afternoon. Those clouds fly by the wind. The sky looks so blue that makes me smile and comfortable.

I miss gazing at the stars at night. They're just like meters away above my head and i was thinking if I could reach them.

I miss talking to the moon. Telling her the stories I'd been writing the whole day. How tired I am, how happy I am. And how could I fell in love.

I miss when times are mine, and life is mine. Everything just seemed so perfect, like I've planned before.

But, people changes, life moves on, plans rearrange. Nothing seems right these days. Days aren't mine, time flies without me taking control. People keeps the distance. Telling me, if I was wrong. And never care if I was right. And life? Life has been a bitch.

I learn how to survive, I learn how to be tough. The point is, I learn how to PRETEND.




Tired of Dramas,
xoxo,



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